start from the begining...

well...jz a little misunderstand...its break our friendship last time...i hope u understand y i blame on u last time...i dunno y...it looks uncontrol in my mind to do tat...

nothing to talk much...starting from the begining...from a normal fren...k....

many things to mention...bt i shortcut la k...coz..no time..^^

well....spm cuming...everyone are study...studying...n study....well....its include me oso la...no time to mention so much la...jz wanna rest a while n write sumthing here...
i hav read a newspaper last week...it gave me a big comfort.....well...i hav no time to write it...its mandarine...i wil explain little bit on that...k...later only i wil post wat i have read...k...
it says...thx for all the plp who hav step on me...thx a lot...bcoz of yr trample...i noe u more clear...its true...well..i thought of the guy who betray me everyday actually...i dunno y i cant forget bout it...its really really a huge hurt on me...i need mor time to recover...i m so injured...bt...who noe???no one noe...i admit...i m wrong if i hav blame on those plp who stil having fren v him...bt...could anyone noe how pain it is??anyone feel it be4??a 11 yrs fren betrayed u??did u noe how pain???did u??
i tried not to think...bt...its useless...he is now show off in front of me n low key in front of my fren...no one noe...n how could they noe??the person who is acting so well is not me...is him...nobody noe oso...so...if u were me...do u noe how great the pain now??so...n oso the newspaper hav said...if all the frens around u was "blind" n stand on his side...therefore the one who is gonna to be destroyed will b me....so...i coudnt say anything...
actually...i like to wrote on blog got a few reason...1st...i dun like to share anything v anyone...i means my problem...2nd...i could not believe anyone now...really sorry....3rd...i m so pain until i dunno where n who to let off my pain...so...pls gv me to write on here...k...
i hav noting to say...i hope i wont having the bad dream during this few weeks...pls god...gv me a better life...n let me forget bout it as fast as possible...i beg u....pls....T.T
lastly...if u wan me to apologise to u now..ok..i m sorry...bt....honestly...i hope u wil oso apologise to me...bcoz i think both of us oso got wrong ok...tats the end~~

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i think i hav done a wrong thing tis time...

2day....our farewell party was organised...at our class 5sc2...one of our classmate wan to bring his gf to cum...he is the one i hav quarel b4..therfore i nv giv permision to let his gf to join us...
my gf ask me a question 2day...if others wan to bring his gf..wat wil u do??silent...i cant ans her question...so..i hav an ans later...bt its came to my mind when the farewell party has finish...i m so regret...sory to him for this time...only...
i m sry...i m so rush on my decision...it make my mind changed...bcoz of my selfishness...bt actually..all of my classmates dun agree sumone to bring his/her gf/bf to come...its our party...i m regret bcoz the reject decision is come from me...only mine...actually...i hav to see the decision of my classmate...not only my decision...its my false...result is only depence on my classmate...so..i m here to apologise to all my classmates...sry...
bt...i apologise only for this...for the other thing...no...wat the guy done tat on me...i wont forgiv him...i dun wan to having quarel...jz need a normal life..hence...thers the end of our relationship between fren...
so...for those who r stil feel tat i m defending myself...i hav no comment v tat...tats all...i nv wan to quarrel v u...its yr decision whether wan to hav fren v me only...k..bcoz..its only u who angry bout me...i nv angry v u...i jz treat u as fren...like wat i said..a normal fren...mayb u think wat i hav said is all rubish..bcoz u are angry v me...bt my opinion on u is different v the 2 guys which betray me..its true..k...(only this paragraph is talking bout u...i dun wan u to misunderstand...the rest is other plp...k)

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i hav learnt a lesson....

hmm...exam haven finish ar~~~soo tired~~dunno my result how neh...bt the one i can confirm is...bio sure fail....haiz.....i study so hard d...stil cant rmb...haiz....nvm...study summor...stil got time...b4 spm i gonna study hard hard neh....~~^^
mayb i could lost many frens...bt i nv regret wat i had done...if think negatifly....i might lost many frens...bt...i gain sumthing oso if i think positifly...
i became mature...i noe wat is happening there...i noe...sum reminder i wan to tell everyone...sumone could stand infront of u...can smile infront of u....can do anything which let u think he or she is good...bt...he or she can say anthing bhind of u...therefor...tats y i didnt trust anyone...i past this type of situation....again...twice...
for this,i dindnt mention anyone....pls dun say i m talking bout sumone again...i didnt mention any charater...ok...so..mayb it is only a reminder...ok....
sumone could hav many frens...4 me...its meaningless...i rather hav frens who r sincere...i need quality fren bt not quantity...
i reali heard sumone talking bout my bad things behind of me...
so...if u ask wheter affect me,or my mood??i can sincerely ans u...the ans is yes...i couldnt study at all...bt wat can i do...i jz hope...pls stop yr action...if u realli hate me...tats yr problem...no need ask other fren asemble at a place n talk bad bout me..ok...if u realli hate me n wanna talk my bad things,say infront of me....k...
i m angry,i feel not fair...bt wat can i do...he affected everyone...no use for me to explain...no one wil trust...no one wil hear...useles..
jz now i saw my fren's blog...she is rite...not we r scare of u n not dare to scold...is actually we dun wan so much quarrel...
we r not involve in politic...we r jz teenagers...so...do not having frens such like those politicans playing politic games...
bt i can say....i not admit i doesnt hav any wrong...bt...they done much wrong than me....if u noe me as well...u wil noe my attitude...if its my wrong...i wil admit...if tats not my wrong...i wont admit...although everyone done tat on me....nvm...i dun care...
again...like wat i wrote in msn...thx for those frens who comforted me...i m fine....dun worry...thx...
so.....for now....i wil try to forget bout it n having my preparation in exam again...+u+u...^^
em...lastly....i would say tat..b happy....it is the most important in my life...no one can help me unless myself...^^

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u misunderstand so so much.....

actually...u misunderstand the character i mention...now...i show u v all the character i mention...

1.in the "closing fs blog"
the is the last blog i wil posted here…bcoz sumone who read my blog n talk a lot of bad things bout me(yeo)..i mind..reali..jz tel him…k…nvm…
2day…i got so many things made me so angry n worried..actually..wat i wan to talk is i m realli not happy v my fren who betray me(cjx)…bt i doesnt stop their relationship(yong sheng n cjx)…i m not bro v those guy anymor(yong sheng,cjx,ratana)…bt we r stil fren…(yong sheng,ratana)a normal fren…bt for u(yeo)…tat’s the end..ok…coz…u ask sumone to lie jz bcoz u wan to take care of yr face??huh??do u realli noe wat r u doin??most of us noe it..bt we let u hav a better stages for u to step down..bt y r u keep hurting us??y??(he wil noe later,coz sumone wil tel him)(yeo gf)
however…i rmb a guy(kee siang) told me tat we jz be happy…its true..wat 4 to angry v a person…jz left him behind…n..forget bout him…dun its a better way??from arguing..or keep angry v sumone??
my life..becomes easier n easier…dun wan to mension anything bout my “love story” in my last blog….k….^^
”thx” for those who viewed my blog…k!!!!!>

2.IN THE BLOG "Acually,no mor bro in my heart anymor,do u know tat?"
sumone told me(yong sheng)…we r bro 4ever…bt do u know tat i does not treat u as my bro anymor(yong sheng n ratana)…??sumone betray me(cjx)…i cant say anything…bcoz i cant do anything…bt…as time pass..i felt those fren surrounding me getting further…y??
the guy(cjx) is reali great in relationship…between fren…ther4 i getting less frens…mayb u think i m not as good as him after i got gf…bt u noe wat…i m oso need my space..v my gf…so…haiz…
i cant forget about the moment the guy(cjx) betray me…til now…its was in my memory 4ever…i m so angry n dissapointed…bcoz…he(cjx) was my fren since 7 yrs old…10 yrs fren….could u imagine the pain?could u??
b4 tat a guy(yong sheng) told me…jz mention his name as “ONG”..he ask me dun wory…he wil suppport me as well…bt after few weeks…i saw him joking along the recess time v the guy which betray me(cjx)…everyday….til now…so???should i believe in bro again??now…he said i never treat him as bro…hey pls la..could i acept this type of bro??
i reli so dissapointed of my frens now…so pls dun ask me to treat u as bro now…its finish…no mor bro…tats the end…k…who is the one who reali treat me as bro…take k of my feeling..i noe…k…
well…tats the end…sad..T.T…
1.so,did i mention one word bout u tat u betrayed me??did i??
2.so actually..u r not wrong..i didnt say u r wrong...
3.i admit i mentioned "ong" is u...
4.i never stop yr relationship v cjx...
5.actually u dun understand wat i m thinking...yesterday i told teck chuan a lot...the main reason i dun wan to brother v anyone is i m now dun trust anyone summor...not yr false actually...
6.so..not only i dun trust u...i dun trust anyone summor...i didnt tel anyone bout my secret anymor...if not...u can ask other...i not only treat u diffrently...actually..i treat everyone differently..do u noe tat??if not u can ask yuen,teck chuan,or other else...ask them wheter the attitude i treat them whether got change or not...
7.actually,i didnt angry of u...i m jz shock when u told me u wil support me as wel sumthing like yesterday...then 2molo u having fun v cjx...do u noe wats the situation..wat wil i think??
8.bout the money...after holiday i wil straight away gv u...i appreciate it...i wil gv u as fast as possible...dun worry...
9.lastly...if u think all the problem r come from me...its up to u...actually...in the camp..i dindnt noe fong ee will cum...if u dun blieve...u can ask her...(tat's between me n cjx the problem,if u think i m wrong...i cant do anything...)...n bout the yeo problem...i realli cant tahan d...actually...he took the racket...bt he dun wan admit jz bcoz he wanna take k of his face...then he ask jit guan to pretend tat jit guan take the racket...so i m so angry...i nv b fren v him...is tat my problem oso?????????(i never wan to tel out the truth not represent i m wrong...4 the jee xian case...his officer is his cousin...wil the cousin help the other plp ??or her own relation??huh??n for the yeo's one...i dun wan tel out jz bcoz i wanna let him cum down from stage...we discuss...between me,kee siang...is tat my false oso???huh??
10.another one...now...i called all my "normal fren" which is guy as bro oso...u can check my sms...teck chuan msn..yuen inbox...st.francis fren inbox...i called them all as bro...y cant call a normal fren as bro??y??

nothing much to say...i nv wan to say so much actually...bt...
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